I used to be a human.

So as a Mom, I'm sure you've heard over and over again "You need to put yourself first!" and of course this line works wonders when I hire a babysitter to watch my child so I can steal two hours to get my hair done (when I force myself to schedule it!). But realistically, the rest of the time, it's an ongoing battle.

I have to honestly admit----I am soooo not one of those Mom's whose got it all together. You know the ones I'm talking about--- The Moms who go shopping with their children, and casually push the stroller around Nordstrom's with their latte's while their calm child let's them browse the shoe section--- yah, so not me. Or the Mom that run's around in her workout clothes and looks adorable and effortless (did she even work out!!!??!?), yah, not me either. I WISH!!!! I just have not mastered the art of looking like a human while raising children. Hopefully, I'll get better, uhhhhh maybe?

Children's constantly changing schedules make it hard to find time for yourself. And as a new Mom, I find that my biggest "struggle," is my guilty conscience. Even as I type this, the internal battle between "what I want to do," and "what's best for Ford," is waging inside my head. As usual, Ford's winning.

Ford has been sick on and off for about two weeks. He started with cutting his final molar, then he got a stomach bug, then he got a nasty cold. So for two weeks, he's been going to bed later, waking up earlier, taking inconsistent naps and well, just plain puzzling his Mama. Even when I've had a quiet moment to myself, the fear of him "waking up," has almost paralyzed me from starting anything for fear I'll be interrupted with a crying baby.

The one quasi "consistent" thing is his nap "time" despite the longevity of the nap, this child is like rain man when it comes to his nap--- must go down between 10-11 AM. I had hoped that all the inconsistencies would help push it back, but alas no, we're still an early napper. Which on a normal day makes it hard bc all Ford's buddies (like most NORMAL children) take an afternoon nap. Meaning, if we want to hang out we've got to do it super early! It's a pain!! The morning's are usually my time (we run errands, go to the gym etc.).

So, with all that said, this Mama is tired and I'm  honestly wondering.... How do you Mama's do it? Especially you Mama's with two, three, FOUR kids..... Oh god, that's just terrifying.....How do you make time for your child(ren), make time for your husband, keep your house sort of clean, and still feel like a human???

What's the secret?????